In trying to be forgiving of others' failings in this world, we sometimes forget that we must also forgive ourselves.
That's a paraphrase of my friend Alex Ruiz. He's the lead singer for a band called Del Castillo, perhaps the most spiritual band I have ever known in all my many years of searching for such in the music world. Many people have tried to tie the music into the spiritual, but in the trying they fail. It is only by living it, and letting that shine out to the world that the music rings clearly of the presence of God in us all.
The above Spanish word means Forgive me. A simple request that too many cannot bend knee long enough to ask, even of themselves, for themselves. Del Castillo has written a song the words of which I do not fully understand....but I don't have to. The passion with which they harmonize their way through it tells me volumes and often moves me to tears. I hope they can capture it in a recording with the intensity they do with it live.
Go check out my blog about music for more on that most amazing band. I am here to talk of something else.
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The grace of the Creatour is a difficult thing to capture, in words or even in a personal search. Too often, bound as we are to this physical place for now, we look for physical confirmation of what we should be able to touch inside ourselves. This is why people see things like the face of an icon in a water stain on the wall, or a toasted cheese sandwich. It is why we search for others to teach us how to live and act, when we already KNOW, deep down, what is a positive way to live and what is not. It is all the temporal wounds this world piles on us that keep us from realizing and living the Truth, for ourselves, of our own doing, as was intended by the One from the beginning. I am astounded at the things I watch people clinging to in an attempt to answer all the questions that go flying around in our weak and doubting minds. We are so good at second guessing ourselves.
The one thing I can say with certainty is that it's okay. We each have chosen this life, the one we are in right now, for a reason. And we did it consciously at the moment we chose, to learn a lesson. That lesson may not be clear at the moment, especially when things are not going the way we think they should be. Yet it will be, as the picture was clear to us before we manifested here this time around. It may come at the moment of death, when we let go of this mortal plane to be reunited with the Source from which we all come......but it will happen. Know that. And I hope, in the knowing, you may find some peace, even if your life seems sometimes to be nothing but a series of disasters.
"As is the atom,so is the Universe;
As is the microcosm, so is the macrocosm;
As is the human body, so is the cosmic body;
As is the human mind, so is the cosmic mind."
ayurvedic aphorism
Namaste.