Lil bit of a shocker...I have been exploring a new tarot deck, first electronically, as it is out of print, and now with a deck I paid a great deal for. It's called the Greenwood Tarot, and is pre-celtic shamanistic, according to its creatours. All I am personally sure of is that it feels very organic, very centered, to these fairly experienced hands. Runes have always been more my style, but this deck has the possibility of becoming integral to my continued learning and teaching.
The title of this piece is about a card I just "drew" on the electronic system. Heron/Queen of cups.....heron apparently is consider a gateway between the here and the hereafter. I have long called myself a walker between the worlds. I was taken aback by this card being so predominate in the reading. What I mean by the name I gave myself is that things - mortal things- come to me to die. The veil is thin for me; I know what is on the other side, and how to get there. To my own dismay, for many years I noticed that creatures seemed to come into my life, only to pass away not long afterwards. I was in my late 20s before I started to understand that they saw in me someone who could make their passing easier. I even aided my own grandmother in her passing over, as I would have for my mother, had circumstances let me.
Slowly, I came to see this bizarre attraction as a gift, not a burden. Too many people are terrified by death and dying, failing to understand that it is just one more step in the dance.I have the ability to teach them that dying isn't hard.
And I am a bit freaked out that a tarot card sees this.
Okay, well not the card, but it seems I am reminding myself of something that gets put on the back burner now and then when living gets too rough. I am a loner, and this appears to be one of the reasons why. Not too many people are understanding when you say things like this about yourself, ya know?
Going over the rest of the reading,I am not so certain of what my intent was with it. Think I wasn't really whole-heartedly into what the reading was for. At this hour of the AM, after being up 20 hours, I suspect I know why! Anyway, I do recommend using the online readings for those who like to explore this sort of thing. It is a shame that it is such a collectible that most will not be able to afford it. May you find a nice spinster aunt/witch to leave a deck to you later in life!
in the meantime:
www.greenwood-tarot.com
and thank Mark and Chesca for the wonderful deck!
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
What Is Love?
That's an eternal question isn't it? Is it lust for another's body, connection to that person's soul through union, or something more intangible? I think sometimes it is a bit of all three.
What is it that draws two people together? My parents ended up divorcing after 32 years together, but my dad right now has been married to my step mom almost as long.
today is my mother's birthday, and i wonder of her. She spent all of her life after the divorce without other male companionship. She told me she only ever loved one man.
My dad, on the other hand, is home right now with my ailing step-mom. she has a ementia problem, and today is being a bad day. Still, at 86, he is willing to stick out the situation, knowing she will never get better, but also knowing that he may be the one person who can keep her under some control, so she doesn't get hurt ot frightened.
Both of those things speak of love. It teeters somewhere between selfishness and self-less-ness. i just haven't quite figured out the point of overlap between two people, and the point of individuality that drew them together in the first place.
I keep looking, keep trying. Maybe that's why I am here this time around.
Happy birthday mom. I miss you.
What is it that draws two people together? My parents ended up divorcing after 32 years together, but my dad right now has been married to my step mom almost as long.
today is my mother's birthday, and i wonder of her. She spent all of her life after the divorce without other male companionship. She told me she only ever loved one man.
My dad, on the other hand, is home right now with my ailing step-mom. she has a ementia problem, and today is being a bad day. Still, at 86, he is willing to stick out the situation, knowing she will never get better, but also knowing that he may be the one person who can keep her under some control, so she doesn't get hurt ot frightened.
Both of those things speak of love. It teeters somewhere between selfishness and self-less-ness. i just haven't quite figured out the point of overlap between two people, and the point of individuality that drew them together in the first place.
I keep looking, keep trying. Maybe that's why I am here this time around.
Happy birthday mom. I miss you.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Self-realization
I have just become painfully aware that I am too jealous a person for relationships.
I had thought it was just my refusal to be the *@(@$*% barbie doll bullshit creatures that men seem to be attracted to for some equally masochistic reason, but that's apparently not it. I am insecure- never denied that- but now I realise it is almost to the point of an illness. I will NOT fight over a guy. I refuse. If he doesn't want me, and can be tempted away too easily by words from another, he's not for me.
That's probably asking a lot of most guys too. Never thoughtI'd say it, but it looks like I am rather high-maintenance. I need security in more than just a monetary sense. I have been neglected and abandoned several times in this life, and possibly others, and it is colouring how I deal with this life. I am tough- damned tough- or I wouldn't have survived this long. But I am a healer, a gentle, empathetic soul, and I guess I am looking for a protector. Ironically, that is the last thing I seem to attract.
A knight in shining armour? I don't think I am that naive. What I do think is that I need something that men of this day are not trained well to be. We've been so busy trying to get them in touch with their sensitive side that the other part, the one that wants to be the protector for POSITIVE reasons, has gotten suppressed or bloated out of proportion.
I hated the freaking song in the '80's but it may be a truer statement than I'd like to admit: I need a hero.
ah me. Sadly, I think I speak for a lot of women. I know many who will probably nod in agreement as they read this. Wonder if they too can find the guts to admit it.
I had thought it was just my refusal to be the *@(@$*% barbie doll bullshit creatures that men seem to be attracted to for some equally masochistic reason, but that's apparently not it. I am insecure- never denied that- but now I realise it is almost to the point of an illness. I will NOT fight over a guy. I refuse. If he doesn't want me, and can be tempted away too easily by words from another, he's not for me.
That's probably asking a lot of most guys too. Never thoughtI'd say it, but it looks like I am rather high-maintenance. I need security in more than just a monetary sense. I have been neglected and abandoned several times in this life, and possibly others, and it is colouring how I deal with this life. I am tough- damned tough- or I wouldn't have survived this long. But I am a healer, a gentle, empathetic soul, and I guess I am looking for a protector. Ironically, that is the last thing I seem to attract.
A knight in shining armour? I don't think I am that naive. What I do think is that I need something that men of this day are not trained well to be. We've been so busy trying to get them in touch with their sensitive side that the other part, the one that wants to be the protector for POSITIVE reasons, has gotten suppressed or bloated out of proportion.
I hated the freaking song in the '80's but it may be a truer statement than I'd like to admit: I need a hero.
ah me. Sadly, I think I speak for a lot of women. I know many who will probably nod in agreement as they read this. Wonder if they too can find the guts to admit it.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Just thinking
sitting here alone on a Saturday AM....much I should be doing and will get to.....
I am in anticipation of something arriving that I finally conceded to buy the other day. It was probably horribly overpriced, but it is a collectour's item and something I have become completely intrigued by: The Greenwood tarot deck. It was created in the '90's, when the pagan world saw a glut of new tarot decks put out. I even have one based on crop circles! I bought it for the pictures, not to use it as a deck, but come on! If we truly knew what the silly glyphs meant, you think we'd be still wondering about them?! I have been given at least three other decks that I will not use in all likelihood, by well meaning family and friends, "indulging" their witch friend's "hobby." Only a handful have understood I talk to the runes, not the cards. And that it is no "hobby."
Anyway, I am just excited about getting to study these cards! I have been using a couple of online sites and am personally astounded at how accurate many of the readings have been. I usually, when I read cards, use the Thoth deck. I was something of an honourary member of a ceremonial magick group here and thus picked up Uncle Al's deck by proxy. It's a very complex set of pictures to interpret sometimes. The Greenwood seems to flow much more naturally. (Not to malign my now deceased friends, but ceremonial magick always felt like someone trying to remove himself from the human condition, be outside of it, rather than one confident enough to jump in feet first, and LIVE.)
Every now and then one must listen to one's instincts. I saw and felt this set through electronics, and got very attached to it, and disappointed that it is out of print. I am not a collectour in the true sense, but I was compelled to give in and pay the price being asked. I feel it was right. I am curious was direct touch, after I clear the deck of course, will do for the readings. I feel a certain familiarity to this set, like I did to the runes first time I laid hands on them. This should be an interesting trip.
more later, after they arrive.
I am in anticipation of something arriving that I finally conceded to buy the other day. It was probably horribly overpriced, but it is a collectour's item and something I have become completely intrigued by: The Greenwood tarot deck. It was created in the '90's, when the pagan world saw a glut of new tarot decks put out. I even have one based on crop circles! I bought it for the pictures, not to use it as a deck, but come on! If we truly knew what the silly glyphs meant, you think we'd be still wondering about them?! I have been given at least three other decks that I will not use in all likelihood, by well meaning family and friends, "indulging" their witch friend's "hobby." Only a handful have understood I talk to the runes, not the cards. And that it is no "hobby."
Anyway, I am just excited about getting to study these cards! I have been using a couple of online sites and am personally astounded at how accurate many of the readings have been. I usually, when I read cards, use the Thoth deck. I was something of an honourary member of a ceremonial magick group here and thus picked up Uncle Al's deck by proxy. It's a very complex set of pictures to interpret sometimes. The Greenwood seems to flow much more naturally. (Not to malign my now deceased friends, but ceremonial magick always felt like someone trying to remove himself from the human condition, be outside of it, rather than one confident enough to jump in feet first, and LIVE.)
Every now and then one must listen to one's instincts. I saw and felt this set through electronics, and got very attached to it, and disappointed that it is out of print. I am not a collectour in the true sense, but I was compelled to give in and pay the price being asked. I feel it was right. I am curious was direct touch, after I clear the deck of course, will do for the readings. I feel a certain familiarity to this set, like I did to the runes first time I laid hands on them. This should be an interesting trip.
more later, after they arrive.
Friday, September 14, 2007
Sept 15th- Join the chant of Healing
FROM MySpace
Join Us for the World’s Largest Global Om on Land and Sea!
On September 15th, 2007, millions of people across the world will unite their voices to create the world's largest synchronized Global OM.
This magic moment will be the highlight of the 11th annual Earthdance International peace festival, and will be the first time in recorded history that global participants will attune to a special specific frequency that is derived from the natural sound of the Earth itself (The Shuman Resonance). Earthdance International is the world’s largest synchronized global dance and music festival that unites over 350 locations in 60 counties to support humanitarian causes and world peace. The defining moment of Earthdance is the global link up where each event participates in the “Prayer for Peace” at the same time. To find out what time the Prayer for Peace and Global Om are happening in your time zone, please visit: www.earthdance.org/timezones
This year, the Earthdance Prayer for Peace will be followed by a synchronized Global Om, as people across the world unite their voices with the intention of healing the Earth’s waters. In addition to this frequency that will be audible on land, we will transmit the same frequency (via specially designed water speakers) to the waters of several sacred rivers throughout the world (Amazon, Ganges, Nile, etc). This gesture is our attempt to "homeopathically resonate" the Earth's water with our global intention of healing the waters, and thus unite all life, on land and sea. The Global Om is a specific healing frequency and can be downloaded as a free MP3 with the Prayer for Peace at: www.earthdance.org/h2om
Over the centuries, Scientists and mystics have honored water’s sacred and restorative properties. It is increasingly evident that this precious resource is now critically endangered. We encourage you to invite your community to join us for the 2007 Prayer for Peace and the Synchronized Global Om! There are several ways in which you can join us for this very special moment.
• Register to hold a private event and celebrate with family and friends www.earthdance.org/PrivateEvents • Register to hold a Public event in your community www.earthdance.org/promoters • Attend a Public Event in your area www.earthdance.org/locations for a list of events
For more information please visit www.earthdance.org or email info@earthdance.org
Please join us for this very profound moment to respect the sacredness of water and celebrate world peace.
Join Us for the World’s Largest Global Om on Land and Sea!
On September 15th, 2007, millions of people across the world will unite their voices to create the world's largest synchronized Global OM.
This magic moment will be the highlight of the 11th annual Earthdance International peace festival, and will be the first time in recorded history that global participants will attune to a special specific frequency that is derived from the natural sound of the Earth itself (The Shuman Resonance). Earthdance International is the world’s largest synchronized global dance and music festival that unites over 350 locations in 60 counties to support humanitarian causes and world peace. The defining moment of Earthdance is the global link up where each event participates in the “Prayer for Peace” at the same time. To find out what time the Prayer for Peace and Global Om are happening in your time zone, please visit: www.earthdance.org/timezones
This year, the Earthdance Prayer for Peace will be followed by a synchronized Global Om, as people across the world unite their voices with the intention of healing the Earth’s waters. In addition to this frequency that will be audible on land, we will transmit the same frequency (via specially designed water speakers) to the waters of several sacred rivers throughout the world (Amazon, Ganges, Nile, etc). This gesture is our attempt to "homeopathically resonate" the Earth's water with our global intention of healing the waters, and thus unite all life, on land and sea. The Global Om is a specific healing frequency and can be downloaded as a free MP3 with the Prayer for Peace at: www.earthdance.org/h2om
Over the centuries, Scientists and mystics have honored water’s sacred and restorative properties. It is increasingly evident that this precious resource is now critically endangered. We encourage you to invite your community to join us for the 2007 Prayer for Peace and the Synchronized Global Om! There are several ways in which you can join us for this very special moment.
• Register to hold a private event and celebrate with family and friends www.earthdance.org/PrivateEvents • Register to hold a Public event in your community www.earthdance.org/promoters • Attend a Public Event in your area www.earthdance.org/locations for a list of events
For more information please visit www.earthdance.org or email info@earthdance.org
Please join us for this very profound moment to respect the sacredness of water and celebrate world peace.
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